Daily enlightenment-Monday, September 13.
This feeling of excitement, or perhaps fear that I have about my teaching of improvisation may perhaps be a very good thing. I should really bask in this feeling and not view it as frightening or damaging my soul. After all one of the things I enjoy the most is performing. Teaching is the ultimate performance vehicle because the teacher has a trapped audience. This is a very egocentric activity. There's no question about it.
I sincerely hope that my present deep interest in meditation and Buddhism is not a passing fancy or fad. I certainly am having a great feeling of relaxation and peace from the readings I've been doing.
I hope to keep a daily journal of my feelings and experiences in attempting to merge my spiritual life with my teaching activities.
The Alzheimer's class went very well. The fact that big Al was not there had very little to do with the outcome. It was a lot of joy and accomplishment in the class which was a result of the fact that I really did nothing more than supply situations for improvisation. It looks as if the easiest way for me is simply to bring in ideas for improvising and let them do it. I had just better forget any therapeutic experimentation. There was applause, and a lot of praise from the rest of the staff. A good time was had by all.
I told Lillian that I would not be available next Saturday because of an improvisation workshop. She seemed all right about that because she has other stuff to do also next weekend.
I know this completely out of context but it's something for me to think about." Thinking is not awakened understanding. Awakened understanding is quicker than lightning where there is reasoning there is failure."
I am looking forward to the Stein Tuesday class. I don't have to much preparation for this. I'm just going to reiterate the ideas I used yesterday with the Alzheimer's group. Also I'll give these people a chance to do some of their scenes and monologues. It looks as if there will be several new people there. What a great opportunity it is for these people in my class to get free teaching of acting for nothing. At least I'm getting paid for my services.
Tuesday Sept 14th, 10
Stein went very well. Several absences. Renee very funny in skit in operating theatre.
New actor guy, terrifically good. Requests scene work.......also from Menage w/Susan
Got phone call from Holly..........will see! Harbour trip had some plusses. Especially the view of New York Harbor and after sunset when all the city lights begin to go on. Ate a very noisy tapas restaurant at the Seaport. Not bad, decor nice, but noisy as it could be. Probably the noisiest restaurant I ever ate in.
Wednesday, September 15.
Went to school, dropped off papers to be xeroxed. Talked with MM and said much too much about my relationship with LS. Stepped right off the pathway. It seems as if there is continual struggle to maintain one's progress in meditation. I found the men's luncheon group to be extremely boring today, but it was nice to meet with Harry and my dear friend, Pete. At the present time I have a temptation not to go back to the men's group on Wednesdays. But we'll see how I feel. (Went to mFood Emp on Ave 6.
As of 8:34 PM today I have not heard from Holly again. Not to worry - the situation of my attending the workshop on Saturday will work out one way or the other.
Took a walk with BGM to the drugstore. She wasn't as good at it as she was in our walk yesterday.
I should not be concerned about my creative dramatics workshop on Friday. However the kind of person I am, I'm always worried. So I think I will try and draft a lesson plan that will satisfy me about what I plan to do. I believe that there are no really experienced improvisation folks in the class so so I can start them all off on a very basic level.